break up ?

nahhh , ni semua kau nak kan ? so , aku terima . kau pon ckp lg bagus break . yes , aku just nak kau layan aku mcm mana kau layan tuttt tutt . tuh je kan ? susah sngt ke ? sampai nak mintak break semua . its up to you lah . as long as you happy . and school holiday dah start , sy busy sikit and sy nak busykan diri sy . haha . lot of work that i need to do . apa dia ? biarlah rahsiaaaaaaa . haha . everyone tells me i should forget about you , you don't deserve me . they're right . you don't deserve me , but i deserve you . i used to treat those who did me wrong with disdain and unacceptance . i was afraid that if i were to treat them nicely it would mean that i was giving them the 'go ahead' , 'thumbs-up' to hurt me again . little did i know that i was only reaffirming that their choice to hurt me to begin with was the right choice . it's always the same in relationship , there is always one person crying and wishing to get back together , while the other doesn't even remember the thing they've been through . i hate that i have to be the one who remembers every little detail while you can't seem to remember me at all . sometimes i think i've gotten over a person , but when i see him smile i suddenly realize i just pretending i over him to ease the pain of knowing that he will never be mine . i swore to myself it wouldn't happen again . i vowed to myself that this was the end . the end of this longing , this yearning so strong . i said i was over you , but oh i was so wrong .